I’ve been living my life the way I want it to be when I was younger.
But then, I realized that I’ve lost something that’s more important.
I’ve lost TRUE HAPPINESS.
I thought I would be happy to have all I want and yet I found out it’s not really material things that would truly make me happy.
Then, I found myself lost in search for HAPPINESS…
But still, I remain positive that soon I’ll find what I’ve been looking for…
MY TRUE HAPPINESS!
i know that i have already moved on and accepted the truth…
but i can’t run away from this day..
their graduation day..
every night, i always think that God is on my side, leading me to the right path..
but how come the right path is the hardest and the loneliest path?
as this day approaches, the hurtful feeling returns…
i know i had already accepted this truth..
is it another test of faith?
this would be a major setback in my life…
many things run in my mind..
like, i would need to wait for six months for my graduation…
the venue for december graduation would be the pup gym..
all i felt is that i’m so humiliated..
ganon na lang ba porke bumagsak ako?
ganon na lang ba kami kahiya-hiya?
another one is that after this summer class, i need to look for a job..
but as i prepare for work, as i look for a job..
there is this requirement of at least A GRADUATE OF A DEGREE IN ACCOUNTANCY..
is there any chance that i’ll be able to get a decent job with a good pay?
the biggest thing is i can’t take the october 2011 cpa board..
i need to wait for one year..
this thing has scarred me for life!
this is the biggest regret in life i ever had!
there was once a time that i even thought that i should have not existed!
i’m just a nonsense!
i’m the biggest loser!
the biggest idiot in life!
but there’s nothing i can do but to face this life..
as i woke up early this morning, i tried to focus my attention on other things by just playing for a while…
after half of the day ends, i went to sm masinag (it’s the grand opening today), just to avoid opening facebook, (i’m expecting lots of fb posts about graduation)
i didn’t even tried to open my cellphone to avoid receiving text messages about graduation..
i know, with this post, i could have stolen the limelight..
this day is really for the people who deserves to celebrate for the new chapter in their life..
sorry if i had done this..
it’s just so hurting..
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.